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Loss & Heartache

posted on: April 28, 2013


After 21 weeks we have lost our sweet baby. 

There's not many words that can encompass all the feelings that I currently feel. Yesterday, I walked into the hospital with a full blown more than half way there belly, and came out completely empty. 

After a sonogram with a new team of doctors on Thursday we found out that our baby's heart was no longer beating. 

At moments I sob uncontrollably, and some I stare blankly wondering if the empty space will ever be filled. 

Thank you all for joining us on this incredible journey. I am sure one day I will be strong enough to share more about our loss, but until then this is all I have. 

This baby felt so real, so alive and was such a huge part of our family already. 

We will miss it tremendously. 


22 comments:

  1. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you and your family and sending lots of love.

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  2. Everything I think to say sounds weak and unhelpful. So I'll simply say how unbelievably sorry I am. Please know that you are not alone and are in my prayers.

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for having the courage to share this heart breakinv news. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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  4. I am so sorry for your loss. I am sending you love and strength.

    Lena

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  5. Oh my. I am so, so, so, sorry about your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine how you feel. I am trying to find words that are comforting but I know that at moments like this... nothing really is. I am thinking of you and your family and hoping that you all find strength and peace.

    Josie

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  6. I am so very sorry for your loss. Wishing you and yours all the strength and love you need.
    Ciara

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  7. LaTonya - my heart aches for you and your little one. I'm glad for the too brief time you had together. Sending lots of healing thoughts your way.

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  8. My heart is so broken for you guys. I cannot begin to comprehend how deeply your hearts are aching right now. Please know that I'm praying for you guys through this. Praying for healing and peace and whatever else it is that you need at this moment. God knows those needs and I hope that you feel His nearness. I'm so so sorry LaTonya.

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  9. I am so sorry LaTonya, my heart is broken thinking about what you are going through. I have no idea what I could possibly say to be of comfort to you right now. Just know that we are all thinking about you and praying for you and your family.

    Gabby

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  10. I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you're going through. I recently lost my cousin (and although in no way comparable to losing a child) it still hurts. As everyone has told me, you will never forget the baby but as time goes on it won't hurt quite as much. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and although we don't know each other if there is anything I can do in any small way to help feel free to reach out to me on my blog or through email.

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  11. LaTonya, I had just started reading your blog a couple of weeks ago and I am so so sorry to hear of the loss of your baby. You and your family are in my prayers.

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  12. I am incredibly sorry for your loss, you and your family are in my prayers.

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  13. So sorry for your loss.

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  14. Latonya, I am so sorry for your loss. I know that no amount of condolences can quench the heartache you feel inside, but I hope one day you will be happy again. Until then, I pray that all will be well. :-)

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  15. What a terrible thing to go through; I can only imagine. So sorry for you and your family...positive thoughts are with you <3

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  16. My heart goes out to you. Grieve and grieve and grieve some more. Trust that someday you will heal. For now, grieve and love and be loved. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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  17. Thank you everyone for your sweet words. You all had me crying with your words and love.

    xo
    LaTonya

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  18. I've only recently begun to enjoy your blog (found through Nat and Naomi) and was sad to read this. I wish you peace and healing -- and patience with yourself as your emotions ebb and flow. Best wishes. ♥

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  19. LaTonya,
    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It is so amazing of you to share your story this way. I hope that you are finding comfort in the small things right now, and taking strength from all those who love you.
    Sending love to you and your family,
    Emily
    (Your friend from Frolic)

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  20. Emily,
    Thank you! I am, the small things go such a long way.
    I need to see your face soon!

    xo
    LaTonya

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  21. I'm so sorry for your lost. Only just found your blog today and working my way through your posts. Sad to read this

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